Code Name Succulent: More on Balance

Balance is a tricky thing. This past
summer I vowed to take more “play time” for myself, and I did,
even though I really didn’t have the time for it. I’m feeling the
effects now, and it’s taken a toll on my self-discipline…it’s
easier for me to brush aside responsibilities now than it used to be,
and I don’t like that. Perhaps that makes me uptight or whatever,
but I’ve been slipping behind lately on the things that I genuinely
want to get done, and not only does that stress me out, it makes me
unhappy. More time to relax doesn’t do any good if you spend it
thinking about all the things you wish you had done.

I’ve cut back my online games to just
a couple that I can play with a minimal amount of time and effort,
and that I enjoy but am not obligated to anyone in. Unfortunately,
I’m writing so much that I have less time to read than I really
need…and that will have to be remedied. I firmly believe that a
good writer must read widely and often, and I’ve been doing a lousy
job of that lately.

I’ve taken on some responsibilities
lately that I truly want to follow through with, but they do require
a considerable amount of extra time, and right at the part of the
year where we (my husband and I) are at our busiest. Plus hubby and I
are doing some things this fall that we don’t normally do (home
improvement projects that should have been done this summer, but late
contractors have set us back a lot), so that’s taking a toll as
well.

The nice thing is, I’m officially “on
vacation” from the day job this next week, which I think will allow
me to not only get caught up, but to re-prioritize all the things on
my schedule and hopefully even get ahead on some things. House
things, writing things, routines, blogging – everything is going to
be pulled out, examined, and slotted back into place so that when
it’s all said and done, I’m ready to jump in again with both feet
(and still have time for the new TV season and FarmTown).

I’m at the point of saturation with
what I can handle, and I know that. But I don’t want to give
anything up, because the things I could afford to give up are the
things that make my life what it is…and I like what my life is. So
a little re-organization is necessary to allow me to keep doing what
I love doing.

It should be a good week, I think. Now
I need to go clean out the fridge.


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One comment on “Code Name Succulent: More on Balance

  1. Ardee-ann Eichelmann

    Jamie, you must follow your own sense of balance. I think you know that but I want to encourage you in it. Your balance is not mine but then we are not the same person and can have different sets of priorities, as well as, differing senses of balance. I once set aside all “me time” for other time, mostly work. Sometimes I only came home to shower and change clothes and then I was back at work again. It was not healthy, I lost all perspective and balance.
    I have to say that I am glad there is some “play time” in your schedule even though I understand that you become stressed if work is not done. I used to be that way and more. I used to be an all or none personality. You are not. You have boundaries for yourself. This is amazingly healthy. I am happy for you. I am glad you are honoring your feeling and what is important to you. I wish you well on your journey. Deep Peace, Ardee-ann